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Opportunities (SYG​-​037)

by Hot Mulligan

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So let's stop pretending that this had meant anything I was just another back seat hookup I was just a selfish way of coping You were always touching me and laughing You said, "Boy, you know that I love you. It's just not the way you wanted me to." I saw you on a magazine Marked "fashion" something You looked too pretty to be true So I assumed it wasn't you Tell me where you got all the courage from Ignored by your best friend and your mom I told you that you could do Anything you wanted You only walk on red carpets Someday soon they're going to end Twisting all tattered your backward head will form it's little plans but You can't depend on anyone It's not my fault that you won't love me if I'm not useful anymore I saw you at a bus stop Waiting for your boyfriend to get off I wonder what kind of tool that he appears to be to you You know you had me contemplate last month away Thinking of what I would say Stay away you ruined me You beautiful but fucking awful thing You only walk on red carpets Someday soon they're going to end Twisting all tattered your backward head will form it's little plans but You can't depend on anyone It's not my fault that you won't love me if I'm not useful anymore Use me as you do
2.
You wanted help But I Am not The ambulance to Carry broken bodies back from suicidal tendencies So take my breath it's what you'll get, another second to regret The times You took And kept My everything It's never been my selflessness My car is not a taxi service Cry into your pillow for the people who don't want you anymore It was the perfect place to finally come through Opportunities at funerals that aren't meant for you You picked your place as the widow to a stranger Shoot back your pride with pity as a chaser Drunkenly drive yourself home I hope you end up all alone I know you just fell out of love Soak up the feeling and know that it's what you deserve And maybe if you wanted to mend what was broke Then I'd understand where your empathy goes The light in your chest is no longer exposed The cold of your heart freezes ice to the roads You know I'm broke Each train Of thought Feels meaningless If Bible School has taught you all the qualities you could improve, The cross around your neck has all but lost the purpose meant for you So try And see Yourself As what you are That's righteous to yourself as though your body isn't full of hell, you'll break over the pictures where your beauty once meant anything to me It was the perfect place to finally come through Opportunities at funerals that aren't meant for you You picked your place as the widow to a stranger Shoot back your pride with pity as a chaser Drunkenly drive yourself home I hope you end up all alone I know you just fell out of love Soak up the feeling and know that it's what you deserve
3.
Wait For It 02:58
All I can ask is that we stay like this forever because I've spent a decade just wishing that we could Fantasies were unmet, and we never kept our promises But this time I swear I have it figured out for good You can be found in the cheapest and sweetest of bottles I have ever swallowed down I'd rather have you than this spinning room that smells like cheap booze and perfume When you wrote me off, I wrote a song about a holocaust You were the premise that dropped the melody into my head Like a bomb that falls and spreads itself across the harbor of my heart Destroying every single vessel in the bay I feel the same way Cheated Depleted A once-boastful army defeated by a play-Judas bullet to the lips Just check the tube of your chapstick It's shaped the same I shape myself around you But you never take the blame I was 200-0 My god, You came around last minute, brought the loss to me I missed the trophy wife, Please can you help me? I'd say to my family If you would ever settle down and realize that it's always been me
4.
Dary 02:41
Where's your father's name now? It's every time you see me Cause it's printed on a street sign that you see entering the city You had a price tag You thought letting materialistic concepts into the process Wouldn't make a difference I just had so much to say, but you don't want to hear it anyway So I will sit and keep my mouth shut You won't hear from me for months, or years, or I don't even care how long Cause I don't want to think about you anymore I was marking up your neck My hips were locked between your knees You were pulling me in But your motives were selfish I think you're bluffing again Don't forget; I can see right through you Your eyes are a window I'm enjoying the view Of your attention complex directing your heart again If you had paid attention to context You would see you only need me when I was showing interest in something else And I wasn't giving you what you were used to I just had so much to say, but you don't want to hear it anyway So I will sit and keep my mouth shut You won't hear from me for months, or years, or I don't even care how long Cause I don't want to think about you anymore You kept me around Cause it was easier than looking for someone else as a fallback No heart inside You wasted this life Keeping this leash cause no one else wants you You won't hear from me for months, or years, or I don't even care how long Cause I don't want to think about you anymore
5.
I am afraid of my grandmothers notes Cause someday they will stop showing up A sweet note and a couple of bucks says "I love you," but the dead cannot love And this grave, It means nothing to you Still something sweet about the flowers and perfume I assumed you'd live forever but if you are never gone Then anything you do will never leave a mark I will never understand my twitch or why anxiety is hanging on to every situation with an iron grip If you want peace you will find nothing in me Every day I am afraid I'll see my family fade away every decision that I make is making it harder to sleep If you want peace You will find nothing in me Who'd have thought that one of us would lose their lives Oh, every night I lay awake and think that I'm the one that should have died Ever since you left I've just been trying to make you proud If nothing else then maybe I can take some pride in what I've done myself I will never understand my twitch or why anxiety is hanging on to every situation with an iron grip If you want peace you will find nothing in me Every day I am afraid I'll see my family fade away every decision that I make is making it harder to sleep If you want peace You will find nothing in me And I tried to find that in you
6.
I can't remember me calling you sober I wish that I would have asked you to come over I must have blacked out again That's how it's always been Why can't I see myself doing anything but struggling? I'm struggling My breath smells like I've been getting high again I wish you could have seen me not passed out on the carpet While I was unconscious Please order my coffin I don't think I'll wake up I don't want to wake up And see anything that looks better off than me I'll fill both my lungs with smoke just so I can not breathe And I'll take another pill Yeah, I'll swallow it down Throw myself into the river And watch me fucking drown Why can't I see myself doing anything but struggling? Personality replaced with internal conflict, asking Why can't I see myself doing anything but struggling? I'm struggling I can't remember you calling me sober I wish that you would have asked me to come over You must have blacked out again Thoughts of a sober friend

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6 song EP from Lansing, MI's Hot Mulligan. "Opportunities" was tracked, produced and mixed by Nick Diener at Oneder Studios in Saginaw, MI and mastered by Cam Boucher.

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released December 16, 2016

3/31/17 Hot Mulligan signed with No Sleep Records and reissued "Opportuniities" remastered and with a bonus acoustic track!

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